阿修罗

昨天，躺在床上，听着王菲入睡。这CD里有我最爱的专辑——只爱陌生人和寒武纪。
自从搬进这间屋子，我好久没有好好的听她的歌。

阿修罗在耳际响起，那是我喜欢的歌之一。听着听着，突然想起了那篇我为这首歌而写的短篇小说。哦，原来我曾写过这么一篇小说！那时，我是多么爱爬格子。真的，很爱。是怎么放弃了呢？

这首歌还是一样，这歌词，总让我感触良多。歌词里，我看到的是恨。

“情愿两个人不快活
也要一起生活
我们做过什么
怎么 怎么
莫非你是阿修罗
享受哀艳的战火
将玻璃鞋也击破
都不愿看破”

 那时的我，想到的是我的父母。

“王子 小王子 为什么
访客们都是路过
为何要 主人难过
发生了什么
怎么 怎么
情愿一起沉没
也不欣赏泡沫”

现在的我，看到的是想要爱，却不得不放弃的伤痛。(除了小王子，还有美人鱼啊）

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