SKY

今天我又哭了。这个星期已经是第三次碰到地雷了。 如果可以好好谈谈就好，偏偏他选择不理我。还不让我去接他。这不是惩罚是什么呀。 我该怎么办？我哭，因为不知道我该怎样表达自己，又不让他难过。 想念又如何？我窝在床上抱着自己疗伤。

When I was in my twenties, I was extremely poor. Paying housing loan and supporting my own living expenses as well as some family expenses and studying at the same time, I needed to save on a lot of things including food. I used to eat lunch at mamak stall. I had roti canai and teh tarik. I didn’t even dare to order something different because it would cost a bit more. When I had lessons at faculty, I ate mix rice without any meat. It would cost less than RM3. For dinner, I ordered home delivery for two but it fed three of us. This was the time where I experienced hair loss and my facial complexion went bad. Then, when I graduated and started working full time as tutor, I earned more. I started to buy more nutritious food. I went back to my healthy lifestyle. I went gym. I drank yogurt drink and milk. I got myself fruits, oats and cereals. My mother came home and took care of us. I actually live better but I have never regained my good and smooth facial complexion. Perhaps, the m...

和他本来就无所不谈，好像什么都可以说也可以一起做。即使隔了4、5年，我们原来还是一样。又回到了原点，只是这一次他是真的为了我回来。 我们两个生在不同的时代里，根本不可能相遇，也相遇了。不可能相知也相知了。不可能在一起也在一起了。啊，还有什么比这些更难？ 说他是笨蛋，其实我才是呢。最终自己还是陷得很深。爱一个人就是这么简单。 P/s: I was thinking to translate this for someone, but then he is an idiot. 16-4-14 18-4-14 For the one and only one We used to talk a lot, as if we could talk everything and anything, and do everything and anything. Even after 4-5 years, we have not changed much (apparently we are not). We are now (returning to) the initial point, but this time he is coming back for me. We were born at different generation. It was absurd to meet but we did. It was absurd to be close and acquainted well with each other but we did. It was absurd to be together but we did. Oh, could it be more difficult than this? Calling him an idiot, but the truth is I am the fool. At last, I am still falling in love, deeply. But as simple as it is, this is love and to love someone it is simple.